I don't know why but Today i feel bad.

For the homeless.

And for the people that think it's funny.

It's not.

With all the "ninja's killed my family" And stuff like that. It's stupid. Some people accually have to live out there alone. With no one careing about them.

And sure there WILL be a couple of the homeless That got that way from being Drunks and just stupid.

But about the ones That are there Not because of that. Maybe someone kicked them out with no where to go. With no on showing love to other humans They ended up that way.

The last time i saw a homeless person was in las vegas... On the strip.

And i never paid attention either.. But i wasn't even A teenager... But that isn't a excuse is it?

no matter how old you are you should care about humanity.

i think if anyone ever did offer to just pay for some food for them, give them hospitaly. I think they would most likely Cry from the kindness they have never seen. All they ever see would be just maybe a five dallor bill instead some change.

I don't know I'm mostly Glad That People Can treat me as human, And care about me. And accually realize i exist.

Or am i just being Silly?

You tell me.

I might update for awhile.

Like anyone cares.

D;

Gah. It has been so crazy lately. Mostly With School though, I have been haveing so much trouble With math... (like i do every year...) and since im so tired all the time i never turn in my work in time. I have to do better or i will groundedddd. And that would suck so bad since things have started looking up for once in a long time. And i think i should change my diploma to tech Since im doing so sucky in CP. But idk Rory says its not worth it, But i dont think i should stay in CP i really dont think im smart enough for this. I know it would be harder and all that later on, but i just want it to be Easy NOW! you know? I have always had TONS of trouble with school And i always will.

I also talked to my mom about it And she says that i still just need to get my act together and just do my work since i am smart (LOL! ME SMART? haha.) and pretty much rory says the same thing.

OH. And speaking of my mom. I had to tell her About me And rory today. God it was so hard to. I was soooo Beating around the bush, It was because i was so nervous. I was so scared That she would like say that We couldnt see each other anymore Because idk thats the kinda thing you would suspect from a mom. Mostly i kept bringing up her past realastionships With Age problems Hey, Its only Fair! But Since i was beating around the bush for so long I Ended up easying her up a bit, And i told her my feelings for rory and his feels for me, and i also told her more about him as in, i know he just doesnt want me around just to you know get some.  And she felt better and She just told me she need to think about it, you leting us be together. Like i thought she wasnt worried about him personally, She likes him. But she was just saying how She doesnt want him to get in trouble. And she also said with older guys I could get hurt easier. And that if i was with a older guy i might not go to college and Etc. she just worrys. so i will get a answer from her about it later.

Now The other Day i Had the weridest Dream EVER! it was in the future n shitz.

The people that were in it: Rory, Me, Ryan(my best friend), A random girl(lol), Obryan, Danny(a random guy)

Now heres the dream ok?:

Im in a kitchen I Have long hair about mid-back, My bangs are dyed purple And im alot more Built up, Most likely Since im older. Obryan is sitting in a chair He looks Much more freshened up then he did, Very nice clothes they were A light blue and white. he was even clean cut, you could tell he didnt have any money problems anymore. and im leaning against the wall talking to him,

"so Kim, i finally got the fireman job i was always talking to you about."

" That's Great obryan. It really is."

" And now i have a good car too. its very nice."

"Awesome obryan... But Really, Why Are you here? It's Been a year you havent talked to me. Why now? And why today?"

" I'm sorry kim.. it was just so stupid to leave you. i miss you. i love you. Didnt you miss me?"

"..."

Then it goes to where we are in a liveing room setting and im talking to this girl. We are just drinking (like soda they were in plastic cups) and i was looking at rory while him and ryan was talking ( I would guess rory said something very funny to ryan because he spit up his drink lauging. )

"So Why did you choose him over obryan?"

"Huh?"

" i mean Obryan has a better job, he looks wayy better,  and now he has a house of his own."

" I dont care about looks, And plus to me obryan is just obryan He isnt some amazeing guy. And so What obryan has his own house? So do we."

"i dont know Rory just seems lame to me."

"Shut up."

"Again, So why are you with him?"

" I don't know.... Maybe i love him."

Then Danny Busted through the front door screaming

"KIM WE'RE GOING TO BE LATE TO PROM!"

so me and him around screaming running around and ryan says "So why dont you just hurry up and get ready?" Me and danny Feel stupid and he goes to get ready, But i remember something and i run over to Rory and give him a kiss on the cheek saying "ill see you when i get home" Then i run off and me and danny get ready for prom.

END OF DREAM

Werid right? But i thought it was kinda cool to. Since it seemed so realistic.

and i wanted to remember it so bad i accually ended up drawing it Anime/comic style.

Speaking of anime me and rory were talking about comic ideas, And since You know everyone loves ninjas, he thought of mondern ninjas, Like They all go to school and they are all in theathre. So when they get in fights and stuff even around the school, All the other students think that its just for the play that they are doing but in total reality it is a real fight. I already thought of 4 characters, But yeah idk. Me and him need to talk about it more. And if you guys have any ideas that would help to <3

But thats all for right now.

Kim

Hey! I'm accually at school right now. It's 7:30 am And im freakin' Tired. But thats alright.

Even though i did forget all the important stuff i wanted to bring to school today. Like i forgot to wear My and Ryans "Kim + Ryan Day" Tshirt. It's Picture day so i was kinda in a rush this morning. Then they haver dip n' dots today but i have no money. Like i said it was picture day so i was in a rush this morning. But  yea. Rory stoped by, Which is good Since Wedesday ended up really bad after he left... Well More like RIGHT after he left the house. Thats when me and my mom started fighting. And yet again like every year. It's about grades. I think i will end up changeing my deploma Since CP Might just end up being to hard for me. But since rory wants me to think about it, So I will (since He told me to ^_^;) Ugh. Just sucks to have my grades be failing Not even three weeks into the school year. And i keep Telling rory maybe it's because im not that smart :/ So yuh.  But i will get through today (hopefully) Especially since when rory Came over Yesterday He gave me his old DS! ^_^ That means now i can play pokemon whenever i want! YAYYY. So i am going to try today when or if i get freetime in class im going to try to level up my psyduck. xD lame right?

IM SO TIRED. DDDD:

I wish i could have some coffee but noooooo. My teacher wont let me! Don't get me wrong shes a nice teacher. BUT I NEED MY COFFEE DAMNIT. But anyway.

AHH NEXT CLASS IN 5 MINUTES. MUST GET OFF. D:

So, I guess ill Update later >.>;

Oh and almost forgot, RORY I MISS YOU!

<3

Kim

Why is it There are so many Hypocrites now adays they really need to get a grip. It's sort of the qoute i wrote down in school today. "when you get hurt, people say things happen for a reason But, when they get hurt IT'S THE WORLD."  I understand small things, You know How some of you like to tease friends but when they tease you It's a big deal right? Thats fine, No big deal. I just don't understand things like you hurt someone so badly but, when they hardly even do a thing to you, You get pissed like they did it to you on purpose. What sense does that make? And alot of people don't understand the world today, Some people Lie so easily to their closest friends, But as soon as those friends turn back and say that the story they made up at the party was a lie, you act like they just crushed you. Which is just stupid. Hyprocrites need to wise up and realise what they are doing is idoitic.

I don't understand Kids my age i wish i could but i just can't. and I can only understand people that are not from my time.  They understand so much more And Have the same feelings To bare with things And go agaist them. Then Their are the rare 20 year olds that what to go back to their high school days and Just make life another high school. Everyone is in a group, Everyone needs to gossip, Everyone has to be fake. I dont know why they would want to go to high school in this day n' age. I mean Even Elementry students even have cell phones. What the Hell do they need them for? To Call their friends to let them know their new barbie princess came in the mail? who knows.

I know it's worse but I know im not that smart either so if you disagree with me thats fine i dont think most people would. But, dont try to say stuff to me on here in a rude manner I mean No one ever wins a fight over the internet. No matter who wins their still a idoit. So i wont even bother with you.

It was quite interesting today, Since me and obryan are no more for some reason people that showed no interest in me all of a sudden say i can talk to them whenever about my problems and cry on them when they need me. But its like You where never there for me before so Why are you talking to me now?

And i also realised how much I put my self down. Today in class we had to show the class our talent in a talent show. I really dont have one other then drawing so, I got started You know talking about myself while talking with the other students, And i kept saying im sorry because i didnt have something better to show off.

And after words i finished the drawing and showed everyone had a room full of clapping and stood in front of the teacher to see what he thought of my talent.

"you have amazeing skill in drawing dont, Ever put your self down not because it's your talent but you just shouldnt do it AT ALL You are a quite a interesting girl and you should take pride in yourself. i am a old fat man, and i still love the way i am. all you need to do is just tell yourself all you can do is be you, dont try to change or be sorry. You are You." - Mr. Steel

And i also had got it all the time from friends and family but i never took it seriously. But How Mr.Steel Talked to me today he made me realise how much i DO put myself down. I have no idea how i can change that about myself But hey All i can do is try right?

Kim

School Started two days ago, It was alright. The first day i was just extremely tired because i only had one night of sleep. I was on the phone with a friend all night, and didn't get off  till one hour till i had to wake up. THEY KNOW WHO THEY ARE. ;P

The second day of school was much better but i was so tired that i went to the wrong class. See We have block classes, you know 4 classes and each is like 2 hours. and i was tired and i thought it was second block and i went to my class and after about 20 minutes i found out it was accually 1st. Can you say embarrassing? but i just stayed in the class anyway because i was to lazy to say anything Lol.  oh and Rory was able to pick me up after school which was Fun! I got to see his room and the rest of his house, (the last time i was there i only saw the kitchen really.)  We ended up just in the other room, Just hanging out, Laying around being lazy. What do you expect from me? Im always lazy! after a while it was around time we headed out, and he took me to chilis for the first time, And they were good. But he ebarrassed me when he told our waitress i had never been there before she just gave me a HUGE "OMG WTF?!" face. but it was fine Expect my mom was alittle mad because i was late.

And Since Rory's rory, he felt bad and bought her Flowers, (Today he did.) he was just planning on stoping by and droping off the flowers and such. but he ended up hanging out with me all day again (not that is a bad thing) today he took me and my brother to a comic store, Well... That was more for him and brad though lol I was more into the ATHF that was playing. It was soooo funnny. but after the comic store we got some school suppiles i really needed.  When we got home i mostly did my homework.... Boringggg! but after most of my homework got done i started to watch cartoons, Ed Edd & Eddy infact. God it is so funny! it makes me sad they stoped makeing it...  But rory ended up watching it with me and I decided to Watch Scrubs (which i also love) And Rory liked it, so that made me happy.

I'll update again later!

(dont know when)

Kim

Well There's a first time for everything isnt there? So i guess it's time for a first blog. I really don't know if i will use this alot anywho. Especialy if no one reads it, but anyway i don't blog very much, but i think i should start so my typeing skills can get better and blah blah BLAHBLAH. you get the picture.

Well To start off A couple of weeks ago, We did the karaoke thing, You know stay out till 2 in the morning just singing our asses off. But you know you have to go to sunO's before hand to get that screaming voice ready! It wasn't that bad. Cept Ryan Wasn't there this time...  But it's alright though He really didnt sing last time anyway :/ but the karaoke was fun, But it got embarrassing When it was my turn To sing. I SUCK AT SINGING. No one seems to understand this. And ....I CAN'T DANCE!!! I AM WHITE. So one seems to understand that either. The only really funny thing that happened is when Obryan took off his shirt and danced like a stripper xD it was awesome. Oh and i also Made a new friend there.

(Big surprize there right?)

But, His name is Rory. I met him at the last AWA But we didnt really didnt talk. The reason why we are talking now is because he drove me home from karaoke so we got to know each other n' shit. :P We get along Very well, And i have been seeing him almost everyday for two weeks now xD I'll be seeing him again at the next lock down @ waba. He loves Hugs. AND I LOVE HUGGGSSSSSSS. They are awesome :D so thats good. The only thing is since we have been hanging out, he Says like everything is cute xD does matter what.... "IT'S CUTEEEEEE."

Speaking of AWA I finally figured out how ill wear the kakashi wig and the Headband, Which i was worrying ALOT about. But i tried it yesterday and it looked really good! And i think on tuesday/thursday ill be getting the rest of the outfit! when i get everything ill put everything on and take pictures  to see if everything looks ok. OH and ill be takeing pictures of my sweet lolita to see what everyone thinks of that to. i can't wait for AWA! espeically now that i have a hotel room >.< so now i wont look like a dork with a back pack. D: I hope i will make alot of friends this year... And ill get my picture taken alot <3

(i want my picture taken alot because it will show the costume was good >_< )

And school starts in WEEK Jesus. I don't want to go back to school :/ i have got to used to sleeping till 3 and staying up till 4 It will be hard as crap to just to get to sleep at midnight! But On the first day of school i will be wearing my kakashi wig and my all-white hellokitty outfit. i think it will be hillarious. Espeically because i also have a hellokitty lunch box and backpack xD LAWL.

But i gotta go, I have to get ready to meet Jay at Waba :]

talk to you guys laterrrrr.

Kimi